If any of you are like me, you are no stranger to pain. I am in a great deal of pain from the moment I wake up in the morning until I fall asleep at night. Sometimes I'll even wake up at night from the pain. My muscles always have a low grade ache like I tried to run a marathon the day before. Sometimes, my joints will ache, especially when it is damp or cold. To write it, because somehow rating pain seems like it's a big deal, I would put my constant pain at a 5 or 6. I rate that using natural childbirth and a broken arm at a level of 9, fractured vertebrae at a 10. Just to give you a reference. It's gotten to the point, then on a rare day that I'm not in pain, I'm at a complete loss of what to do. I almost don't know how to act when I'm not limited by physical pain and the exhaustion that goes with it.
When I was younger, one of my grandparents would talk about how pain was tiring. I didn't understand that what that meant. However, after starting this journey, I now understand. To be in constant physical pain, is so very, very, very draining. It's draining both emotionally and physically.
It is amazing how much energy I can use up doing something as simple as typing. When your fingers hurt from pecking on the keyboard.... when your upper arms ache from hovering over the keys.... when your chest muscles hurt from moving your arms back and forth... when your neck muscles hurt from looking at the screen... I think you get the point. I'm drained just from writing this post today. It is frustrating to be so limited.